It's nearly been two weeks since I pressed the reset button on my spiritual life. It has been an interesting journey so far. I am finding that a few old practices and ideas have come back to me and are building into a spirituality all my own.

The first thing that happened was a dream. The very first night after I decided to just sit and listen to guidance, I dreamt of an Elder tree and a message came: "This will take many months. Don't pull the fruit off it yet." That was such a clear message that I made the Elder tree in my garden a partner in my practice of sitting and listening. For many months to come, obviously.

Virtually every night since then, dreams have come to guide me. Some of the images were quite striking and just begged to be worked with. Because of that, I have gone back to a practice of Dancing with Spirit that is all my own, and that really works for me. Why did I ever let it go?

So every morning I go out into the garden, and on the patio by the Elder tree I dance my dreams. The dance transforms challenges into strengths. And when I don't remember my dreams, like this morning, I just dance with the spirits of place. Today, I danced with the cold Easterly wind and with the blossom on the apple tree. I danced with the optimistic green of the Elder and with the pulse of spring in the Earth. After a little while, the dance took me, and I was moving just for the sake of it, for the fun of moving. And it felt great.

After my dance I sit and listen, still. This is the practice I have taken for myself, to sit two or tree times a day and just listen to what is there, in and around me. Which brings me to the other thing that remained: my connection with the Wheel of the Year. What all this seems to be giving me is a way to dive more deeply into the changes of the Moon and of the Seasons. And that makes me happy, too.

Sometimes, I still want to know all the answers now. I don't want to wait and ask the Goddess impatiently what I'm doing this for, what I'm actually meant to be doing. Today, as I sat under the Elder quietly, her answer came: "What if all you need to do is to notice the changes of the seasons and celebrate them?" My answer is: that sounds great. I can live with that - for many months!